secrets of happiness, :)

haha, no.22 tak bleh blah. curik dari my sister's dashboard dlm bilik dia. she said she got it dari org kat black canyon restaurant tu.muahahaha.good one.:)

tak luak pun

a friend of mine called today saying that she's depressed, she's sad that people around her keep talking behind her and that its driving her crazy. hmm.... i asked her "whats the worst thing that can happen?mak kau mati tak?ada mana2 family member kau mati tak bila org ckp blkg kau?" and she said no and after that a long pause.

hmm, what can i say. of course la kita akan terasa bila org ckp blkg kita kan, especially org2 sekeliling yg rapat dgn kita kan. especially the so-called friends yg depan kita baik, tp kat blkg mak aih, dia yang kaw kaw kutuk kita. bukan tak pernah kena, pernah. tp like i said, tak luak pun kalau org kutuk kite, baby aqeef tak berusik pun, suami saya tak kurang pun sayang dia kat saya, serious tak terkesan sekelumit pun. so, buat apa nak sedih2 kan, nak stress2 bagai. tak luak pun.

org bile ckp pasal kite maksudnya dia sgt caring pasal kite, n kite patut rasa bersyukur sgt sbb orang tu ambil berat pasal kite to the extend yg bila kite takde kat situ pun dia ingat kite. huhu. bersyukur sudah. like i said, tak luak pun.

to the friend(u know who u are), there's no need to be depressed ok, u have so many things in life to look forward to, there's no need to focus your attention to stupid distractions. seriously, u cannot stop people from talking, it will drive u crazy if u try to do so. what u can do is, smile when the world is cruel on u. and know for a fact that no one controls your happiness and well being, but u.:)please know that u're an amazing person n i love u lots tau.

p/s: saya happy hari ni, Allah bagi saya rezeki yg murah utk baby aqeef saya, baby besar saya dan ibu bapa saya,:) alhamdulillah, syukur.


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down with fever n flu, again.:(

had massive headche and runny nose since yesterday, but still went to the office. malam smlm pegi tgk wayang, little red riding hood dgn my lovely hubby. sgt seronok,:) hilang sekejap kesakitan demam, tapi dok srot sret srot sret dlm panggung gak. hidung gatal, huhu.

malam tadi out, demam panas, selsema teruk,huhu. pagi2 bgn nk mandi pegi keje, badan kena air sakit gila rasa mencucuk cucuk. tsktsk. tak larat sungguh. lantas mc, terbongkang je kat umah ni. badan sakit2 sungguh. i have so many things to do but my body just wont let me. jalan pun kaki mencucuk2.

tersedar dari tido, tgk2 ada...


bubur ayam mcd!!!!!:) saya sayang mak saya, the best mom ever. sbb nilah saya susah nk tinggal jauh dari mak saya. mak saya sgt cool, caring dan penyayang. ok, its the fever talking now.



:) still thankful for being sick. ramai lagi org lain yg sakit dgn incurable sickness.so i'm not complaining. i'm just bored.haha.

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jalanholic

yep, i admit, i am somewhat a jalanholic now(if such word exist la kan,huhu) kalau sehari tak kuar umah tak sah. huhu. this morning, i woke up at 6, n my baby followed suit. he woke up around 6.45. lepas tu tunggu papa bgn, n paksa2 dia bgn ajak jalan. huhu. siap merayu2 papa bgn cpt sbb nak jalan ok.

papa buka mata n cakap "i think u're a jalanholic la.." sambil senyum2, haha. i cant help but to laugh out loud. but i replied "what do u mean?". papa ckp, nak kata shopaholic, tidak la sgt, suka shopping tapi sgt careful dgn benda yg dibeli, takdelah sgt boros n compulsive pon, so tak kira shopaholic(according to his definition la, mazhab apa tak tahu).

tapi papa kata tang jalan je, memang takleh kira. mestilah kuar berjalan, tak kira pi mana pon. huhu, ya kot. tak reti lekat kat umah. n yep, we went out today, to 2 shopping malls n my PIL's hse but did not spend a dime, so bkn shoppaholic. tp da sgt happy sbb dpt jalan2,:)

especially jalan dgn akip n papa dia. happy saja saya. :)


jalan2 pastu papa belanja makan pizza. saya on saja sbb aunty chika akip ckp pizza baru dia sedap.huhu.


n mmg sedap la aunty chika!:) tp byknya mayo n cheese dia. bercinta la nanti nk bakar balik, tsktsk.


akip pun seronok makan cheese stix, :)


pastu papa dia nak cari bag, dia pon sibuk nk bag.





pastu dia suka sgt bag ni sampaikan bila kami keluar dari kedai tp tak beli bag tu, dia melalak dekat setengah jam kot. T-T sian akip. tp bag tu cam tak tahan je. nanti la mama belikan akip bag cantik sket ok.


i'm going to miss this little boy tomorrow.;(

oh esok hari isnin, tak pernah rasa setenang ini di malam ahad,:)

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the pressure is on

a conversation with my mum, i think it was yesterday kot.

mak: mak rasa aqeef da jadi sgt spoilt la sekarang ni. dia asyik minta dukung and jerit2 bila org ignore dia. and kalau dia tak dapat apa yang dia nak dia akan jerit2.

clueless me: biasalah tu mak, i read somewhere, toddler his age mmg mcm tu, dia nak attention all the time and da start buat perangai da. bila dah 2 tahun lagilah, they call it the terrible 2 or something.

mak: i know, but he's different. ragam dia tu lain macamlah mak rasa.

clueless me still: pastu nak buat camne?what do you want me to do?

mak: mak rasa, kalau dia ada adik ok sikit kot. this would be the best time to give him a brother or sister kot (muke cheeky).

starting to feel the pressure me : huh?nanti dulu lah mak, tak mampu lagi kot sekarang (i meant tak mampu dari segi strength, attention & time).

mak: it's ok, insyaAllah ada rezeki baby tu, mak boleh jaga and tanggung cucu-cucu mak.

me : *blur*

the pressure is on bebeh. :) hadapi dgn senyuman,what else is there to do?

22nd april

smlm 22nd april, birthday makcu akip.:) happy birthday makcu!!!! pagi2 da wish makcu ingatkan makcu kat uni dia lagi tak balik rumah. mama aqeef pun pagi2 da plan macam2, nak pegi gym la malam, confident je makcu's birthday celebration will be on the next day, which is today lah, saturday kan.

sekali, ptg smlm, maktok aqeef called, "can u be at serai empire by 6.30 for adik's birthday?" huhu. i replied "can..insyaAllah" haha, mkn punya pasal kensel gym dan segala2nya, muahaha.

tp on the way tu, papa aqeef called saying that all the routes heading to and from subang are jammed up due to faulty traffic lights and flooding. and so we re-route our destination to sunway pyramid. and we ate at thai thai restaurant! yummilicious, scrumptious thai restaurant ok. my first time there smlm, sedap jugak lah. will post more pictures later on. my phone's battery decided to go kaput on me on thw way to sunway pyramid, hence, no pictures from my phone at all.

we enjoyed the food tremendously, our family,dgn food, apa saja tak suka kan. lepas shopping jalan2 cari mainan. tp balik2 dia pilih ball. ball da berlambak kat rumah, itu jugak dia peluk. so, kensel beli pape. papa borong toiletteries aqeef je sbb jusco tgh jcard's special day, sabun badan, shampoo n nappikleen aqeef sume sgt murah ok. papa terus borong siap2,:)

and oh, kesinambungan dari cerita smlm, my maid told me aqeef now can reply "youuuuuu" - the shorter version of i love you - acompanied by kissing gesture and sound ok, comel je. tak sabar nk tunggu dia bgn and spend the weekends together,:)

slmt berhujung minggu y'all!:)

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happy

everyday before i go to work, i'll kiss aqeef goodbye n say i love you. normally it will be followed by aqeef's high shrieking voice, wailing to follow me to work or if he's in a good mood, he'll just stare sadly at me before i walk out the door.

today, before i left, i put aqeef in my mom's room and said i love you. he replied with a big smile on his face " youuuuuuuuuuu". awww, it really made my day ok. apparently he's in a good mood. maybe because my mom gave him m&m's chocolate di pagi buta kot, huhu.

*happy mode*

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selamat hari jumaat

words that greet me in the morning everyday. a reminder to live every moment, laugh everyday and love beyond words.

selamat hari jumaat.:)

p/s:nis, i miss u, benda hijau tu mengingatkan aku kat kau selalu,:)

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gembira tapi keliru

i received a very good news from one of my best friends, puan pengetua fariza, last two days. she's pregnant with her second child!alhamdulillah,:) i was, and still am very happy to hear the news.seronok ok dgr org pregnant especially when its any of my shah alam besties. two of which are pregnant for the second time. another one's amoy, who was the first to have a baby among us.

and as expected, amoy called me after we received fariza's news and we got to talking. amoy kinda talked me into having another baby right now so that our babies will be of the same age,haha.comel je. she kept saying things like "babe, kite beranak banyak2 je before 30, lepas tu relax je la jaga anak,takyah susah2 fikir nk beranak da babe,". and surprisingly i started to think about having one for myself too.haha. and of course my parents are also hoping that aqeef will soon have a little baby brother or sister kan. and my mom, upon learning about fariza's pregnancy, sgtlah happynya, n nampaklah muka teruja nak suruh aqeef dpt adik ok.

but nope, i'm not ready. insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki, tidaklah kami menolak, but i know deep in my heart that i'm not ready. the main reason would be aqeef.skrg ni pun tak cukup lagi rasanya berkasih sayang dgn aqeef, kesian dia kalau ada adik n terpaksa pula membahagikan kasih sayang utk adik dia pula. skrg pun da sibuk dgn kerja n mcm2 hal, i have to rely on my mum and others to look after him, tak dpt bygkan kalau ada adik mcm mana.

i dont want to be the type of mom yg beranak lebih je pandai, tp org lain yg jaga, beats the purpose of having kids, for me lah. the best part of having kids mestilah the part where u raise them up kan. skrg pun, i beat myself up for not being there 24/7 for aqeef, sgtlah sedihnya bila my mom or my maid yg beritahu pasal aqeef's latest ability ok. so, adik aqeef will just have to wait insyaAllah tahun depan ke kan.

i know ramai org kata ridiculous gila my fear ni, takut tak boleh bahagikan kasih sayang antara anak2 kan. i know, Allah takkan bebankan kita dgn benda yg kita tak boleh tanggung, and of course adik aqeef will also be my baby yg i'll love to bits insyaAllah, but for now suffice to say that saya tak puas lagi memanjakan dan bermanja dgn baby saya kot.

masa before pregnant dgn aqeef dulu pun, i had my doubts jugak, will i be a good mother, boleh tak jaga baby baik2, and mcm2 lagilah. and we decided to wait for a year before trying to have a baby. tapi orang biasalah kan, kalau lepas kahwin, after 2-3 bulan tak berisi lagi, byklah mulutnya kan "ish2, tak berisi lagi?kesian.." , "pegi check doktorlah". n mcm2 lah, n their words got into me and there i was, pregnant after 5 months i got married. i'm not complaining, cause aqeef is the best thing that's ever happened to the both of us, but i hate the fact that i succumbed to what other people say instead of following my own heart.

the morale of the story is, dont just simply follow what others say.just listen to them, consider good and bad points, then only you do things that feels good for u.after all, its your life, kan? whats good for others will not necessarily be good for u kan?

today i say i'm not ready to hv a baby, but tomorrow, who knows kan?;p


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tupperware

i'm planning to go to the tupperware shop in shah alam to buy stuff for my mum later this week.if anyone needs anything, nak pesan pape, do let me know ok.


























for clearer catalog, kindly refer to the original source. http://catalogtupperware.blogspot.com. dasar pemalas nak scan sendiri.huhu.

i'm getting the baby set,sgt comel tak boleh tahan, huhu.finance minister da bagi kelulusan utk beli, dia pun tergoda sbb comel kot. thanks sapiki,:)

tak sabar nk beli botol susu akip,ngeee.sgt cumils.

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pre-wordless wednesday

chocolates for aqeef.(still tak faham concept wordless wednesday-or maybe i hate it when people post only pictures without any word on a wednesday.could that be it?rebelling subconciously perhaps?)

anyways, maktok n atok aqeef da slmt sampai dari china. hoyeah, tak payah jadi cook, driver, bibik, bank, nanny dan councellor lagi.;p

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telatah aqeef at 15 and a half months

aqeef suka makan, what else is new huh?dari nasi kandar ke bubur nasi sup ayam utk baby, semua belasah. alhamdulillah, as long as cukup utk perkembangan fizikal, mental n emosi dia,:)


aqeef suka gila tgk lif and selalu dok wonder and muka confuse gila bila dlm lif or when he's outside and pintu lif tertutup. kat klia hari tu, puas hati dia dok tgk see through elevator,comel je dok terjengah2,huhu.


aqeef suka tgk kakebang, suka tgk train and anything that moves for that matter. boys will be boys kot kan.


and suka mengurat budak2 perempuan2 comel plis. nak berkawan kot, dia akan diri dpn any girls. senyum2 n sometimes diri eye to eye right in front of the girl and start into her eyes.


tapi bila the girl responded, he'll run the other way lintang pukang. haha. dia ingat main kejar2 kot.haha.


aqeef juga suka senyum, when people say "aqeef, suka tak?" or "aqeef, suka qeef, suka mcm mana?" he'll smile dgn mata sepet2nya,:)


aqeef suka mak ngah n mak chu juga. sbb diorang rajin melayan aqeef, kan kip?n rajin belanja aqeef makan n mainan kan?n suka bagi aqeef main apa saja, n sepahkan rumah sesuka hati bila mama takde kan kip?


aqeef sgt suka mac n cheese juga. mama just found this out.habis satu mangkuk dia habiskan sorang.


especially when the dish is a free one. muahaha. kalau mkn kat kenny rogers, and u makan 2 meal ayam dia, children before 4.5ft will get a free dish.yummm,:)


aqeef suka merry go round juga. puas la dia jerit2 nk tarik mama naik, tp camne, kalau mama naik kang roboh, kalau aqeef naik sorang bahaya pula. tunggu besar sket la ok sayang?


aqeef suka baby doll. ehem.batuk kejap. need to ask nanny aqeef, papa masa kecik2 dulu ada tendency suka baby doll ke tak.haha, nak salahkan papa jugak, muehehe.


seriously he'll grab all the baby dolls dulu ok. siap peluk pastu nangis2 bila pulang without any one of it. mama kejam belikan lego je.


aqeef suka naik kete bergerak ni. not necessarily kete saja kot. sume jalan.huhu.


aqeef sgt suka pancake juga. makan kan, apa saja boleh ditelan kan.


tgklah betapa gembira nya aqeef makan ice cream n pancake. mama pun happy tgk aqeef happy, berbaloi baloi weekends mama, tau kip.


n aqeef suka perasan baby, nak duduk atas tmpt baby instead of tmpt stroller. tapi mcm sakit belakang je tgk aqeef duduk mcm tu kan?huhu.


n of course la aqeef suka swimming kan, as always,:) n mestilah swim kat umah je sbb mama boleh join sekali,;p

thats about it kot, til next month's progress,toodles.

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my two boys

skrg si papa dgn si baby da ada hobi bersama. bgn pagi2 main angry birds bersama. tak boleh blah, dua dua gagah meniarap main angry birds punya pasal.haha.

aaaah, weekend's here,i've missed u so much.:)

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of jealousy & feeling lo(w)

jennifer lopez's new on the floor's video clip is so not fair!she's had twins ok, and her body is still hotter than any of the single women around. i am green with envy now. no doubt she has thousands of dollars-a session-celebrity trainer, cooks who can cook according to her body's nutritional needs & all the time in the world to workout la kan. :(

OMG, when she dance, even saya pon tergoda ok. sgt smart badan dia,tsktsk. she's had twins ok, TWINS!

sambung kagum dan meratapi nasib diri.haha.oh btw, lagu on the floor tu sgt bagus dijadikan workout song, sgt memberi semangat, :)

p/s: bulan ketiga(march) hanya kurang 2kg saja akibat penang food trip
n demam, 2 minggu tak ke gym.:( not good not good. april mesti kurang at least 5kg.harap maklum.

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cheeky aqeef danish

my cheeky baby. skrg dia da lasak n naughty sket, ada je benda yg dia nak usik, nak babab, nk godek, huhu. n normally bila dia buat muka mcm kat atas ni, adalah projek dia nak buat tu. mcm gambar ni, lps dia buat muka ni, dia peluk mama dia,geletek2 n gigit leher mama. pastu suka. n syafik's been telling me not to shout or laugh when he bites but, oh my, have u ever tried to do that?- not shouting out of pain, or laugh when your baby bites u i mean? susah ok.huhu. tp mmg takleh gelak pon, sbb kalau gelak atau jerit dia ingat its a good thing, so he'll keep doing it. ah, the joy of motherhood, all the pshychology and stuff, gaaaaaa. i'm going to mess this little boy up, arent i? rasa clueless tetibe,tsktsk.

mari doa dipermudahkan semuanya. peliharalah anakku ya Allah, semoga menjadi org yg berguna di dunia dan akhirat, amin.

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of being selfish once in a while

i've tried to make everybody happy while i suffer, staying shut and hide from everything. no more, am going to think about me , my husband and my baby first. no more bebeh, no more. u just try to mess with me, regardless who you are, i'll shoot u down. u just try.

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kick start

at aqwa(aquarium of west australia). we had a great time here. :) . thats all for today, haha. muhammad aqeef, wait for it, mama will write more insyaAllah.kahkah.

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pending to do stuff

have been meaning to complete the first task since january but come may, still no progress, haha. i dont know why, but i dont have the right momentum to write a travel post i think. no motivation whatsoever, but i know i need to write it for my own future reference. and of course for aqeef's future reference as well. it'd be nice if this blog of mine can serve him well as a journal of his baby & toddler years. at least until he can write a journal on his own kot.

ok, motivated enough. i shall start to write about our holidays..................erm, tomorrow perhaps.;p

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one word friday.

awesome.:)

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